Honesty vs. Hypocrisy

This post below has been posted before in my own space. But I want to share the points of it with you guys… hopefully it might help at some stage… =P I want to apologize for some offensive terms that I used in this post because when I wrote it, I was temporarily insane… x)

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22 September 2007

I don’t know why, but I just really want to write a bit about honesty and being honest.

For me, honesty is the moral uprightness of being sincere and truthful. And there’s nothing wrong about being honest, or perhaps there is?

Yesterday one of my friends sent me a message and told me that one of his teachers had mocked him and teased him off with words. I knew how it felt like to be teased and mocked by someone who supposed to encourage you but act the other way around. But then late at night, I was thinking about it and tried to see it from the other perspective, considering about the conditions and situations, and then I thought, “Maybe what the teacher had said was true. Or maybe she was just trying to be honest.”

I mean, why should you say a good thing about something which is not good? Doesn’t that mean that you’re being a hypocrite? For me, it is important to be realistic rather than having an insincere respect of something. It’s like indirectly lying to yourself and others because you talk and behave differently. Well, I know that sometimes it’s just really hard to be honest, isn’t it? Most people would misinterpret the words that you used to express your thoughts about them. Why? Simply because some people have a really narrow way of thinking that they can only absorb everything directly without seeing it from different perspectives first. And it’s so funny that those people are demanding truthful words from others but actually indirectly asking others to be a hypocrite because they cannot accept the reality that honesty does offer them. Having said that, who’s the hypocrite here?

Talking about honesty and hypocrisy, the same happens with being modest and too modest.

Having a modest characteristic is good, but being too modest, it sucks man! From my view, being too modest is like you’re demanding to be praised. It also means that you often consider things from its bad side. Seriously, it shows that you have some kind like a big hole in you personality straight away. It’s like you want others to look at you as a pathetic and hopeless person. Why don’t you behave like any other normal person that you admit your talents and be grateful of what you have or had, and not showing off something by acting desperately humble so others would praise you? Why you have to envy others’ achievements or life conditions that theirs are way better that yours? I mean, honestly, appreciate your life, or life will not appreciate you. I got so fed up with those kinds of things since one of my friends always does that every single day. And you told me that you know something about life? Oh come on, grow up. You’re just pretending that you know it, but in fact, you know absolutely nothing about it. It becomes like a cycle that controls your life. The more you think negatively, the more you’re trapped in that cycle. Perhaps you may not realize it that you’re pulling yourself away from the good things. Well, maybe it’s just the consequence of being too-modest I suppose?

Excuse me; you cannot harvest strawberries when you’ve planted wheat, right?

Moral of the post: if you behave positively, be optimistic, and appreciate your life, all of the good things will come to you automatically. No questions asked.

any comment guys? =P

ik ben (g)een Recisian

Dag iedereen,

I've tried to post it in English, but my Dutch has already ruined my English. wakaka... The words just don't show up. so, i'm just going to post it in Indonesisch.

Alle, kisah gue jadi begini..

dulu pas gue masih belom sadar gue ini sapa, *nama gue sapa, pribadi gue seperti apa, bakat gue seperti apa, dll, dsb.* alias masih balita gituh. nyokap gue daftarin gue ke TK Recis ato apa lah namanya dulu gue kaga ikut campur. wakaka... Hari2 di TK gue dah kaga inget, tapi yang pasti dulu bestfriend gue itu namanyaArdelia Ganadi *yang sama2 dari TK mpe SMA di Recis, kalo ada uni-nya maw masuk juga ga lo del?*. Ekskul pertama gue yang bener2 menarik *echt spannend en echt plezant* itu nari. wakaka...

trus masuk SD, gue masih diantar jemput sama nyokap gue dengan mobil starlet putihnya yang dikenal oleh semua satpam di Recis, jadi untung juga karena tiap gue nanya ke mereka "pak, mami udah nyampe belom?" trus mereka bisa jawab "ooh, di belakang neng" ato "belum liat tuh neng". bener2 menyenangkan jadi gampang nyari mami, wekeke... *makasih pak satpam* lalu mulai taun pertama di SD, gue bertemu dengan 1 orang menakjubkan yang namanya Althea. ini orang bener2 sahabat sekaligus rival langsung gue. soale dari kelas 1 SD mpe kelas 6 SD kita saingan sampe akhirnya gue mengalah : ok, lo emang lebih pinter dari gue. wakaka.... bayangin aja ntu begimana dari kelas 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, 5A, 6A sekelas terus dan kami berdua selalu jadi murid kesayangan guru2. wakakkaa... *bangga*

masalah pas masih SD : gue dan Althea emang jadi murid kesayangan guru2, tapi gue bukan jadi teman kesayangan teman2. wakaka... di SD itu 6 taon, banyak musuh yang gue bikin kayaknya. khikhikhi... maaf ya. mulai dari sahabat gue sendiri : Diana Hartono dan keluarganya. trus akhirnya juga kayaknya berantem deh sama lo, del, trus berantem juga sama Rini Yulianti, trus ada lagi gituh kayaknya. banyak de. pokoknya gue di SD ini bener2 bukan tipikal orang yang disukai oleh semua orang. wakakka... *rese gitu lah* sebenernya bego juga sih gue, karena gue mau gituh cari musuh, tapi bis gimana dong, waktu ntu gue belom sadar sama diri gue ndiri si. jadi maaf yah teman2!

masuklah gue ke SMP. di SMP sifat gue yang "brengsek, sok ngatur, berasa paling jago, dll, dll" masih menyertai. jadi di taun pertama gue punya sahabat2 yang namanya Rama Sudibyo, Elisabeth *moffats*,Priscilla *Pristo* Budihardjo, Rini Yulianti *again*, dan Angeline *tuyul* tapi toch, tetep berantem lagi di akhir taon. wakaka... yang sebenernya gue sampe sekarang menyesal sekali nggak bisa kenal mereka n sahabatan sama mereka sampe kini. Karena mereka ini bener2 orang2 yang baik dan mereka tuh selalu support satu sama lain just like a TRUE BESTFRIENDS. oh ya, gue juga ada 2 sahabat waktu ntu namanya Yoana *YoPa* Paula dan Stephanie *Anie* Amanda Bintoro. Itu juga akhirnya pas SMA dah ga pernah deket lagi, cuma mungkin interest nya berbeda ato bagaimana. tapi thanks yah, udah pernah masuk dalam hidup gue. wekekkee...

lalu... taun kedua SMP, image gue dah jelek sekali deh sebenernya waktu ntu kayaknya. tapi berhubung gue dapet kelas yang asyik, dan agak2 gituh bersama dengan anggota2 geng yang mereka namakan THE CANTEENERS gue secara tidak langsung juga terbentuk jadi orang yang mungkin asyik tapi brengsek gituh. wakaka... *gataw itu jadi makin parah ato ga*. naah, sahabat gue pas waktu ntu namanya Chaterine Tanuwidjaja yang sampe sekarang masih keep in touch sekalipun udah nggak pernah ketemu lagi. We're just growing to be different people. tapi gue masih bener2 seneng karena kita masih bisa nyambung sekalipun pergaulan dia dan gue udah ga sama lagi.

lalu akhir taun ketiga, saat di mana gue bertemu dengan sahabat2 gue sebenarnya. Sabina *PIPIT* Satriyani Puspita, Aristyo Rahardiyan, Gerry Gunawan Saputra, dan Khanti *ACONG* Paramitha. WOW, they're just UNBELIEVABLE! bahwa gue yang NERD bisa bertemu dan berkawan dengan mereka dari dulu sampe sekarang, itu gue sebenernya ga habis pikir. Dari situ gue ngerti apa kata persahabatan sebenernya. Lo ga perlu jadi orang yang populer ato sok ngerokok ato sok2 jago ato sok2 nakal ato sok2 lainnya *kan kalo kita gituh anehnya semakin nakal kita pikir itu semakin keren* tapi tanpa jadi begitupun lo bisa sadar siapa sahabat lo sebenernya. sahabat yang nggak cuma seneng2, tapi juga selalu support satu sama lain. yang gue berasa lucu sih, pas SMA kita semua pisah, pipit ke sanur, tyo ke cc, acong ke SMUKI, gue tetep di recis, geri ke sekolah atlet; dan sekarang kita semua lebih PISAH lagi ke lain negara semua pipit ke Taiwan, tyo ke Ausi, Geri ke Denmark, gue ke Belgi, dan acong tetep di Indo. tapi rasanya sekalipun kita jauh, kita tetep deket di otak dan hati, dan gue yakin nanti pas kita semua pulang pasti bisa ketemu dan kumpul lagi bareng2.

Lalu... masuklah ke masa SMA, dengan image jelek yang gue bawa gara2 YEARBOOK sampah. maaf ya teman2 kalo yearbook dulu jelek dan nggak mutu, gue dah berusaha semaksimal mungkin buat menerbitkan buku itu sendiri dengan Devina *Depi*. kita nyari sponsor bareng tapi yah begitu itu... panitia yang lain....... *rasanya pengen nangis de*

di taun pertama gue di SMA, sangat2 kelabu deh.. di saat gue mau masuk suatu grup tapi dibudakin, kalo ada tugas gue dsuruh kerjain sendirian dll dll dan akhirnya gue enek dan berenti n sekarang gue benci banget ma grup itu. wakakaka... ITU GUE GA PERNAH MENYESAL untuk keluar n berenti dibudakin. gue bener2 bersyukur sekali bahwa gue nggak terbawa2 ke dalam grup itu dan jadi orang yang mungkin tidak berguna. soalnya dengan keluar dari grup itu gue bisa dapet temen yang bener2 temen. Fiona *Ona* Gunawan, Rafaela *Rafa* Jessica, Gisela *Tink2* Nishia, Jessica *Jebok* Ariawan, Monica *QK* Claudya, Irene *Iren* Marcella, Lavena *Deph* Esperanza, dan lagi2 Yoana *YoPa* Paula. gue bener2 berterima kasih banget sama mereka, di dalam pertemenan kita banyak konflik2 yang itu sendiri juga ga lepas dari ke-brengsek-an gue. wekekkee... gue rasanya jadi orang kok brengsek bener ya?

dan akhirnya di kelas 3 SMA, gue punya SEJUTA teman2 yang najis najis baiknya... dan SEJUTA sahabat2 yang najis najis kompaknya. gila... 3B!!!!! gue bener2 bangga sama mereka. gila2... dan yang pasti ga lupa juga bahwa gue punya 2 orang sahabat yang bener2 mengerti gue... Daniel *Niel* dan Fabian *VB* Sulaiman. mereka ini orang2 yang bener2 deket di hati gue. khikhikhi... untung di akhir taun gue di Recis, gue bisa mengenang banyak kejadian menakjubkan dan bukan kejadian2 brengsek macem berantem dan bermusuhan ato apa lah...

hmph, sekarang gue dah di Belgi dan gue bener2 kangen sama mereka semua. sama temen2 gue yang pernah mengisi kehidupan gue. kita ini tumbuh sekarang di lingkungan yang berbeda, ga akan heran kalo jalan pemikiran kita udah nggak sama.

berantem ato rusuh karena perbedaan jalan pikiran itu biasa...

yang luar biasa itu kalo ......

dengan jalan pikiran yang berbeda, kita masih bisa bersatu dan bisa menamakan diri kita "Teman" dan masih bisa kumpul dan saling sayang

gue yang sekarang udah berubah sekalipun sisa2 jalan pemikiran anak SMA kelas 3 masih belom seutuhnya hilang. sekalipun apa yang gue liat di sini nggak bisa kalian liat, dan apa yang kalian liat di ujung dunia mana nggak bisa gue liat, gue harap kita sebagai alumni 2007 recis masih bisa menyebut diri kita ini sebagai ANGKATAN 2007 yang nggak cuma berarti kita lulus di taun itu, tapi juga kita utuh sebagai suatu angkatan..

Ad veritatem, Per caritatem...

gudlak buat semuanya... dalam studi, dalam masalah hidup, dalam cinta, dll dll...

groetjes en kusjes van Belgie,

dina budiarto

PS : jadi, ini hanya kisah di masa lalu, kalo ada yang tersinggung mohon maaf yah, ini hanya kisah masa lalu.. ;)

Tribute to Recis..

Responding to my good friend's tribute to Recis,

I've been in recis since I was only a baby... My brother and cousins were all attending recis, so recis was actually part of my family... When the first time I attended recis, 14 years ago, I never knew that recis would affect my life THAT much... I hated going to school.. *I guess I was a spoiled little girl back then*.. However, now I wish I could turn back time to my school years..

Recis has taught me not only academic stuffs, but I also learned how to be a human, an educated human being, who is prepared to survive in the "world"... In this school, we belong to a great community that is diverse in personality, but somehow we managed to unite as a group of students in Regina Pacis High School. I remembered once my teacher said something about "sense of belonging" *I didn't know what exactly he was talking about, guess I didn't pay attention then :p~*, anyway I think that is the reason why I love recis so much. I grew up in this particular place, from a spoiled lil girl until now I am a young adult who has learned how to live life to the fullest. Even though I'm off to college now, I still think that I belong to recis.

Recis has given me the meaning of friendship. I've met my best friends * yeah its plural*, and it was the MOST wonderfulestestt time of my life.. especially my high school time, it was really the best 3 years of my life. Now that I'm in college, it's all different, we mind our own business, and not bothering other people. It's so individualistic here, and its gonna drive me crazy eventually :p~... Somehow I am used to be together with my friends, I felt secure and comfortable then..

Therefore, I was really sad when I graduated from recis *not that I was sad for graduating from high school*...But leaving recis was like leaving a piece of myself behind. Fortunately, I was recruited to the yearbook committee, so at least I can give something back for recis.. I designed some of the pages in our yearbook. I put my best efforts in this book, I'd rather given up my vacation than neglecting the tasks I had on making this yearbook, because I knew that recis deserves the best.. I could never pay back for whatever recis had given me this past 14 years..

So anyway, after putting on and off all kinds of recis' plaid skirts, I finally have to put it off for good, but I will always treasure all the memories behind recis' special plaid skirt.. haha.. *sounds cheesy, but I do think that recis' skirt is beautiful*

enjoy the yearbook..^^
i'm sorry if there's any mistake or whatever in the yearbook...

ps: I know my grammar sucks.. that's why I write this blog, for practice.. ^^.. don't hesitate to make corrections.. thanks... ^^

a tribute to recis.. =)

I’m not brave enough to call myself as a true recisian because I didn’t graduate from recis senior high school. Although I didn’t finish my high school for the very last semester, (which I regret it now) but I really thank recis for teaching me a piece of something of what we called life. As a representation of my gratitude, I want to write a bit of the things that I’ve learnt at recis for 13.5 years because it definitely has contributed something in to my life, something that I’ve missed since I left it. Something called a true friendship.

Thus, it goes like this…

Some people might think that you go to school just to study so you can get your academic qualification regarding to prepare yourself for your further academic studies. But from my perspective, school life is not just about studying mathematics, science, history, religion, sociology, geography, and whatever it is…for me, school is the first place to understand about the other side of life.

In my kindergarten years, I learnt how to draw, how to read numbers, and how to write and read a letter by letter in the alphabets… but besides all of those things, I’ve learnt how to believe in myself, how to interact with others, how to appreciate the friendship that I’ve made by not being selfish, and respect other people; and more so as I grew up until I reached my high school years.

In my high school time, I knew many things, I learnt many things, and tried many things. I knew how to gain a self-esteem, make self-consciousness exist, have and defense your own thoughts when brainstorming with others, trust your conscience, and also knew the magnitude of a-friend-support, knew how it’s like to have an additional “family”, knew the meaning of friendship, animosity, success, failure, triumph, disappointment, solitude, solidarity, happiness, and a bit of how to communicate without having to say a word… at that time, I also learnt how to forgive, how to love others, how to maintain friendships, how to be sincere and not be a hypocrite, how to tell myself not to be selfish and sacrifice for others, creating a bond of brother-sisterhood, I learnt how to wag without have to feel guilty (ups… =P), and those kinds of things… things that I’ve learnt besides mathematics, history, geography, and whatever it was…

Realizing that it’s been a while since the last time I explored a folder called “Old Stories” in my document, yesterday, I gave it another look and started to laugh immediately, looking at those silly pictures but full of reminiscences. It was my high school memories, which was the most delightful time in my whole life hitherto. It was so wonderful and I realized that I’ve been missing all of those things since I came to New Zealand,,, at the school that I’m attending now, there’s no such thing called ‘a true friend’; they all just an ordinary people which will always come and go in my life. And that’s what I’ve missed…the laughter, the moment, the exultance, and the other things that I used to share with my friends, which I couldn’t do any of them now. In here, I have to do and go through everything by myself. Feel delighted and contented without have to share it to anyone, and feel wretched and dejected without have to tell anybody, coz… oh well, no one cares though... It makes me become so numb and so maverick. But since then, it turns out to be so fathomable relating to what I’ve been looking for since I lost it. I didn’t realize that I’ve been craving all of this time, wishing that I could turn it back to my high school year since I realized that I really missed them and the laughter and those memories in my life that we’ve created together… T.T

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Someone told me years ago, “high school is the best time you will ever have in your life. Enjoy it.” at first I thought, how’s that possible? But now I knew that what that person had said was true… it was the best.

And since then, I knew what they called true friends…
They are friends who are miles away but always there for you whenever you need them.
Friends who are really understand you; accept and love you for who you are…
Friends who will not stab you from the back, but support and walk with you side by side…
Friends who are miles away and will still call you at midnight and sing happy birthday to you on your birthday when no one else does…
Friends that know instantly if there’s something wrong happens to you even when you try to lie to them… and they will ask, “Please tell me the story…and don’t worry, your secret save with me…” with a comforting smile.
Friends that will hug you and comfort you when you cry and say, “It’s all right…”
Friends that tell you “you will always have me” when you feel you’re left behind and alone…

So, do you guys feel the same thing as I do?



Dedicated to all of my irreplaceable friends who are miles away but really close to my heart... I will never be able to thank you guys enough and tell you how grateful I am to have friends as great as you guys… yay! ^^

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Regina Pacis Jakarta
Class of 2007

Inside cover

Angkatan

picture taken and edited by Lisbon. Rumahcontoh photography.


designed by regina pacis yearbook committee (art)